Cancerous Depression

I was thinking about my depression these days. It seems that I can keep it at bay sometimes but, eventually, it always come back after a while. In a way, it looks like cancer: you can’t completely destroy it without crippling the patient and the only way it to keep it at bay or do the waiting game.

I had two stories of cancer in my family and none of them ended well. My gramma became so weak after doing quimiotherapy that she didn’t even looked like the same person. After a while, she didn’t even sounded like the old lady I knew: her memory failed constantly and, sometimes, I was even hard to understand what she was talking.

I know I could do a “mental quimio”, but I’m always thought that something like that would change my personality and I believe that we are the sum of our problems and our virtues. You take any of them and you are not the same person again.

The whole point of that is that, now, when I think about my depression, it is not “when I get cured”, it is more like “when it will finally kill me.” It is not as bad as you may think. Honestly, knowing that I can’t get rid of it and that, sometime, it will kill me, make things look a lot more clearer in the future.

2 thoughts on “Cancerous Depression

  1. I told you the solution of your problem ONE GAZILLION TIMES
    WHY THE HECK DO YOU REFUSE TO ACCEPT IT?

    It’s SIMPLE. It’s BASIC. It’s HUMAN. But you REFUSE TO DO IT. 8-|
    I’m NOT KIDDING. Apply the solution. Seriously.

    Here’s a piece of wisdom I have fixed in my mind, which I learned a few months ago…
    “Man is a curious animal. He loses his health working to get a lot of money. Then he loses a lot of money trying to restore his health. He lives as if he would never die… he dies, as if he never lived.”
    Well, something like that. Think about it. Redefine your concepts of what your life is, what it should be and what you are making out of it.

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